I am 24 and yes, I haven’t decided about my future yet. I haven’t decided what to do, where to go, where to live. I am not aware of the ideal lifestyle one should have. I am clueless about my career and my other plans. I have few plans in the back of my head, but they ain’t firm enough to be ever implemented. So what? So what, if I am not aware of my next life decision. There are many people like me. There is nothing wrong in not knowing what you have to do.
Instead of wasting half of the life, planning and failing in the pursuits, it is better to live your life unplanned. I am a firm believer in destiny. I know something good will happen. The negativity of the judgmental people around me will never stop me. It will never make me sad and depressed. And if I ever feel low, I will think about the worst that could happen to me, and then compare it to the present situation and be thankful to the Almighty for giving me such a beautiful life. Instead of wasting my life planning, I will start with little steps and preliminary goals and achieve them. Happiness is just a frame of mind, your own perception.
And then she slowly walked away with a heavy heart. Few things don’t change. Few situation repeats itself. The story remains the same. The character changes. This is life. It was difficult for her. She had no fear of ridicule. But someone who loved her and observed her silently could feel the change. She was wearing off day by day. She was losing herself.
I have always been posed with a question to myself, why do I think too much? Why do i feel like changing the world with my thought process? Why do people call me emotional? Why am i judged for being an extrovert? Why do frankness and truthfulness, not respected in today’s world? Why am I not even able to fake a smile, when people around me can fake the whole relationship? All these questions have always made me weak. I have always had thoughts of changing myself and becoming like others, self-centered and emotionless like a solid rock. But i never succeed in my mission of changing myself. I cannot pretend and over time I have realized my inner-self and outer-self is putting me into troubles.
People abuse me for being emotional, being a cry baby, being too sweet with everyone, but, what they don’t understand is, unlike them, I have always been my real self. I don’t pretend. If being with people, talking to them, listening to their stories and sharing their pain and happiness gives me satisfaction, I don’t think I should stop doing that, because few people around me think me to be pretentious. It is high time for me, when, I should make a settlement with the reality. That the world will not change, but I should not modify myself and bring myself with the terms of the materialistic world. People who love you, will keep loving, irrespective of what you are and who you are. If your act towards others is not being acknowledged by them, do believe, their is someone above us, above mankind, above everything in the world, and he is maintaining a diary of your deeds. He will surely reward me and you one day!!!