I have always been posed with a question to myself, why do I think too much? Why do i feel like changing the world with my thought process? Why do people call me emotional? Why am i judged for being an extrovert? Why do frankness and truthfulness, not respected in today’s world? Why am I not even able to fake a smile, when people around me can fake the whole relationship? All these questions have always made me weak. I have always had thoughts of changing myself and becoming like others, self-centered and emotionless like a solid rock. But i never succeed in my mission of changing myself. I cannot pretend and over time I have realized my inner-self and outer-self is putting me into troubles.
People abuse me for being emotional, being a cry baby, being too sweet with everyone, but, what they don’t understand is, unlike them, I have always been my real self. I don’t pretend. If being with people, talking to them, listening to their stories and sharing their pain and happiness gives me satisfaction, I don’t think I should stop doing that, because few people around me think me to be pretentious. It is high time for me, when, I should make a settlement with the reality. That the world will not change, but I should not modify myself and bring myself with the terms of the materialistic world. People who love you, will keep loving, irrespective of what you are and who you are. If your act towards others is not being acknowledged by them, do believe, their is someone above us, above mankind, above everything in the world, and he is maintaining a diary of your deeds. He will surely reward me and you one day!!!